Struggle
Travelers on this road of chaotic life:
More often than I care to experience I find myself wrestling with the evil that lurks within my own heart. Contempt towards those I love and an overall sarcasm that laces everything that I say. There is so much more to this side of me and I have written much of what my heart tells me at these points in a manifesto - a writ from the dark side of my soul. This might later end up here on this blog but for now it remains similar to the countless other thoughts feelings and actions of this sort - an unpublished private account shared only with the Being who forgives me of such things and the fellow travelers I feel confident enough to share with.
This is a side of me that I do not like. I however hold fast to another side, a soul cleansed with infinite forgiveness. All other portions of my heart will pass away and burn on the final day but this will remain. I am forgiven of all wrongs. I can stand before final judgment blameless, not because I truly am but because I have a Great Ambassador, a Representative who, knowing the standard of perfection demanded by my Judge gave of Himself lived in the tangled web of Roman governance and under the stringent law of religious piety - and lived perfection for me, and then died a death at the hands of the most practiced executioners. Tried and convicted for a preposterous crime he did not commit. The innocent's blood was shed and so now I can stand before a just ruler and present this story as a marker for my place in paradise. For this I am thankful and for this I gladly endure the hardships of a world swimming in judgment!
All those who read these words know that I am not judged fairly and so it only makes sense that I not judge you. I know not the deeds of your soul and should leave this decision to the One who vouches for me in paradise!
More often than I care to experience I find myself wrestling with the evil that lurks within my own heart. Contempt towards those I love and an overall sarcasm that laces everything that I say. There is so much more to this side of me and I have written much of what my heart tells me at these points in a manifesto - a writ from the dark side of my soul. This might later end up here on this blog but for now it remains similar to the countless other thoughts feelings and actions of this sort - an unpublished private account shared only with the Being who forgives me of such things and the fellow travelers I feel confident enough to share with.
This is a side of me that I do not like. I however hold fast to another side, a soul cleansed with infinite forgiveness. All other portions of my heart will pass away and burn on the final day but this will remain. I am forgiven of all wrongs. I can stand before final judgment blameless, not because I truly am but because I have a Great Ambassador, a Representative who, knowing the standard of perfection demanded by my Judge gave of Himself lived in the tangled web of Roman governance and under the stringent law of religious piety - and lived perfection for me, and then died a death at the hands of the most practiced executioners. Tried and convicted for a preposterous crime he did not commit. The innocent's blood was shed and so now I can stand before a just ruler and present this story as a marker for my place in paradise. For this I am thankful and for this I gladly endure the hardships of a world swimming in judgment!
All those who read these words know that I am not judged fairly and so it only makes sense that I not judge you. I know not the deeds of your soul and should leave this decision to the One who vouches for me in paradise!
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